its been a long week and i am glad its finally friday.
i guess i am just wishing for the days to race past because each new sunrise simply means that i have survived another day.
my minds a whirl and my heart feels somewhere inbetween absent hollw and thorn into a million pieces.
its like when you break a glass window and the shards lie shattered in a trillion different directions and all thats left is a huge empty gaping hole.

met b for breakfast yesterday.
and somehow those few hours made me realise how much i had given up and how much i had not treasured simply not noticed and not seen simply because i was so caught up blinded and consumed my chasing that one thing that was simply dragging me further down the hole that i've created for myself.

i really really need to get myself out of that hole before everything simply just consumes me.